13 September 2020

A wait. A hope.

Waiting for you.
It's been so long.
That,
All the perception
Is gone and
Torn bits of what
You felt like 
Remains.

I try to recall
Your name but
I can't. And
Each time I fail,
I come up with
New ones. 

Sometimes,
Starts with D
And ends with I.
Or it lingers 
Between S and A.
I don't know. 
Doesn't matter
Matter I guess.

Like,
A lazy evening.
A mellow sunrise.
A fading melody,
A fleeting cloud.
I remember you,
Like I've forgotten
You forever.

I feel you like,
A steady peck
On my neck. 
Slow brush on
My hair.
A comforting
Caress and
Maybe lots of
Hugs.

And sometimes,
It feels like
You aren't really 
Gone.
Lurking secretly,
You're there always.
But I pass that
Thought.

There's a pleasure
In giving you 
Names.
Wrapping you in
Metaphors.
Slice you, bite you,
And totally savour
Every side of you.

It's like the 
Transience has
Faded and you've
Become an 
Immortal idea.
A fantasy.
A memory.
A worthy wait.

11 September 2020

Reflective Guilt

Stood in front
Of a mirror.
Didn't like 
What I saw.

Put on a smile.
Screamed, 
And cried.

Wore colours,
And a new hat.

Blood throbbed
The same.
Moments passed
In vain.

Mundane is
My thing.
Pretnse stuck
Like side wings.

To start over.
I used an eraser
To rub off my 
Story written in pen.

Mistakes undone.
Mirrors stare,
For the story
That's gone.

For the papers
I have torn.

10 September 2020

Still Moments

The day has faded into the dusk. Bit of drizzle has absolved the sweaty-sticky disgust of the summer. 

The rubble in the backyard is moist and half burnt. The vent off smoke has scented the freshness around. Smells like childhood.

The crickets chirp. Through the haze, birds flutter. A half-read story from the past crosses my mind. I just smile and let it go.

Life's still. Nothing to look out for or to be bothered about. I just sit. Observe. Smell and feel the evening. Life in slow motion.

Something strikes me. An overrated couplet of Rumi. I can't help but relate to it. Maybe this is what he meant when he said about that place beyond right and wrong.

Then I hold on. Pass that thought and come back to blankness. To feel. To smell and to just breath away the moments. 

09 September 2020

RomCom

Good looking girl,
With a sad face.
Can hook you
To a song.

Her dirty mind,
And sharp eyes.
Can butcher 
Your heart.

Sleep free,
Euphoric nights.
Long lost
Obvious days.

You'll be infected
With that smile.
Life'll seem to be
Defined in her arms.

Muse with 
Dim-lights.
Rom-coms and
Movie nights.

Cuddles, 
Hangovers,
Long drives and
Lazy walks.

Oops. Reality 
Off the track,
Again.
Lemme end this.

Story. Too ideal 
For life.

08 September 2020

Emptiness

A word sown 
Has failed to
Grow into a 
Sentence.

A poem,
Full of bloom,
Been grounded
By despair.

Clear skies are
Pain.
Nimbus laden,
A bland hope.

For a craving 
To go athirst-

The water
You served,
Has re-enforced
This emptiness.

06 September 2020

Hurt

Poems written
In the night.
Are dead by dawn.

And the ride on
Unicorn is a
Myth again.

For a moment
She was there..
Then gone.

Itching flashbacks.
Her traces 
Everywhere.

Reality and utopia
Intertwined.
Hope and despair-

All hurt the same.

 

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