27 April 2025

Caw Caw

Boredom is a crow that
Sits on the clothesline 
And caws.
Caw caw to mess with
Your head.

Caw caw to draw your
Attention to the things
That are better left
Un-attained.

And caw caw to trigger 
Your anxiety with 
Rounds and rounds
Of FOMO.

Hungry, desperate 
And utterly restless-
Ready to push you to
An edge-

Caw caw in your fingers.
Caw caw in the eyes.
Certain cold in the thighs-
Butterflies in the belly 
That want to come out.

You try to scratch 
Your nose thinking it's 
Just an itch.
Just a notification 
You say to yourself but 
Ain't that a bitch?

Time stretches like
You're sucked into a
Blackhole.
Attention spans,
Bombarding thoughts-

Mere excuses drown
You in a whirlpool of
Dopamine.
Caw caw for the hours
That have passed-

Time-jump like there
Was a wormhole-
Age is just a number.
Caw caw for the years
That have gone.

To a Baddie

She lights cigerettes
To burn matches.
Kills doves to invoke 
Desire. She's an overused 
UNO reverse.

She's obsession on 
Steroids... Bukowski minus 
The beers and whores.
But the dick still intact.

She's prayers yapped 
Backwards.
Satan seeks her mercy 
To doze off at night.

Jinnxed blood and 
Marrow. Crows mourn in 
Her shadow- she's doused 
Hope of tomorrow.

Every soothsayer's refuge
Before they went terribly
Wrong. She is till today 
Shukracharya's daily riaz.

Tamraj Kilwish once said
"Aditi Kayam Rahe" to
The dark and the mangal 
In Lord Shani's horoscope 
Got misaligned.

So this is a wake-up call.
There's a new force in town,
God/Demon as pronouns.

Pray or cuss- it's your choice.
But be careful while you
Open your mouth-
Stupid is allowed but not 
Boring. Roar/ cry but
No pretense.

Smut or dirt-
You'll be killed if you'd
Be cliche or cringe.

17 April 2025

Demons

So the demons visit
Me in my dreams.
They force me to
Pose for pics-

Sometimes against the
Hazy background of my
Mind or sometimes
Against the hormonal
Patterns in the night.

There's one against
My growling belly and
One against the worms
Crawling in my veins.

Every morning I find
Them hung to my gut
And I've to look at
Them real hard before
I begin my day.

Night by night and
Day by day, years have
Passed like life is a
Compulsive painting-

Dark strokes everywhere.
No room to breathe.

Light hesitantly enters at
Weird angels and leaves
Before it can brighten up
Within here-

I found myself clicking
Selfies one day.
Habitual, conditioned-
It was unbelievable.

Maybe possessions
Work like that..
Demons work like that.
Maybe art works like that.

Your face constantly
Shifting to fit into
Whatever the heck you
That wants to come out
Making a noise-

Till one day when you're
Convinced that the
Demon that chased you
Was versions of yourself-

And all art is looking
Daily in the mirror.

Narcissism ft Global Warming

Why can't I write
Something emotional.
Something vulnerable?
Have grown numb?
Do I feel nothing?

I scratch myself. Bite.
I bring a spade to
Dig up my chest.
Split it with an axe to
See if I make any sense.

I search for drops of
Emotions restlessly.
I go deep and deep
To find nothing-

Aridity reeks in here.
And I seem to have
Stranded here for so long
That I've built an
Ecosystem for myself.

The date trees.
Camels to hitch a
Laughter riot.
Caravans pass by-
No strings attached.

My distance from the
Rains. Distance from
Any attachments to
Water-

There's an Oasis at
A far distance but
I only need that to
Quench my thirst.

There's lots of
Cacti infestation says
My therapist/ecologist.

I say it's just harmless
Humour and sarcasm.
She says that's coping
Mechanism of a desert.

So I am trapped inside
A character?
And how she goes on
About how Cacti are
Designed to trap
Others for moisture.

You mean I trap people
Who are emotional?
She declares-
Narcissism is a proper
Desert ecosystem-
It's global warming.

16 April 2025

Craving

Conquer my bare body
And thrust your fingers
In my mind.

Play with the thoughts
Of mine and teach the
Art of passionate desire.

Wound me in the right
Places and hurt me
Like I want it more.

Treat me badly and
Make me beg- I always
Wanted to be your slave.

Sell me to your dirtiest
Fantasies at a lowest bid.
Lemme experience-

The drains of your
Sweet sins. Hope they're
Full and flowing to

Readily drown me in.

Unwanted Closure

The angel you are.
The obsession you've
Become.
My attempts to quench
This longing-
I've brutally scratched
Myself to bleed.

And every time I do that,
You plant your red flowers
In my wounds.
Desire is a cocoon and
I've happily become
Your prisoner.

Pour the wine of your
Eyes. Trap me in
Incantations of thighs.
Punish me. Make me
Scream your name.
Gag me, choke me-
Beat me up.

Dig into me and soak
Me up in your lust-
Love is overrated anyway.
Haunt me like passion
Project gone wrong.

Put your fingers deep
Into my mind.
Touch my thoughts
Inappropriately.
Infect the dark corners
And hydrate the
Empty ones.

And deep in there,
If you can find a child-
Hug him up and don't
Let him cry.
Pour more whiskey
On him and make him
Talk-

And If it is about love-
If it is still about love!
Slap him hard.

Give him unresolved
Yearning instead.
He doesn't know it
But he needs an
Unattainable wanting.

15 April 2025

Forbidden fruit

It took lots of attempts.
Lots of coxing and
Cajoling. Flirty texts,
Superlative poems.

Treating you like a baby
When you turned
Vulnerable and
Cunningly slip in a
Sarcastic comment
That almost hid my
Intentions.

I'm no saint, you see.
I needn't be but
I'm a bit self-reflective-
My feeble vices,
Wild desires and longing
To commit sweet sins-

While I improvise to
Learn, re-learn, and
Cook you up on low
Flame for long-
Pampering you was a
Culinary affair.

And for the first time
We breathed close-
As the strands of your
Hair brushed my cheeks.
The lips quivered
And tongues battled..

You almost let me touch
Your bosom.
But it felt so wrong
Somehow.
I kept overthinking about
The boundary I should
Have crossed.

But when the next time
It happened-
Like my hands acting
On their own-
It was so good.
Heavenly.

The beauty of this
Evolutionary compulsion-
Seems in the Garden
Of Eden, God was not
Angry about that one
Forbidden fruit.
But of two.

Premature Intimacy

The desire in the mouth
Dripping to lips-
Almost undressing you
With my eyes.
My gaze would always
Try to devour you
Like you're a feast.

I read you page by page.
Touch every word with
Fingers to taste your
Meaning on my tongue-
You're a book of riddles
And how I wanna be an
Egyptian cryptic.

The bombarding wild
Thoughts in my head.
Getting shaped and
Reshaped- smeared
With wet passion-

I would leave no
Opportunity to thicken
The air between us
With my wit-
Love the way you look
When you try to hide
A blush.

This compulsion of mine
To intoxicate myself on
Each of your breaths-
You're almost a landmine
I wanna accidentally trip.

But I know you want me
Walk away at the right
Amount of heat-

I see you explode alone
From the sidelines and
Ohh! How hard it is to
Contain myself from
My own ruins.

12 April 2025

The Dead: This is business

To improve the general 
Level of empathy.
To increase the standard 
Level of dignity of the dead-

The government made
Necrophilia compulsory.

You gotta shag at least two
Before you got your degree.
You gotta shag atleast four
For your Social Security.

A whole industry came 
Came to life to cater the 
Needs of the public.

From half-dead to 
Fake dead. From just
Stinking to rotten for a
Month straight-
Different packages and
Flavours-

Champions were 
Announced based on time, 
Place and weather-

Did it in the dark of the
Night on a grave to
Doing it deep in the rain
And thunderstorm-

The tax proceeds on every 
Events and activities was
Pumped to finance a
War elsewhere.

More bodies and more 
Empathy for the dead
They declared.

Necromancy is next in
The line revenue-wise-
But that's only allowed 
On the corpses that are
Shagged atleast thrice.

People are on the streets 
To have the limit reduced.

For quite sometime,
They want the government 
To at least consider
One count if it was done
When the body was alive.

11 April 2025

Family

I'm gonna have a wife who
Would wrap herself in a 
Two-meter saree.

She'd pull up the Ghungat
At my instance and 
Respectfully give up her
Last name to get mine
Gracefully.

And she'd worship me.
Toil in the kitchen day n
Night coughing-
Make me rotis on a
Chulha as they'd not be 
Tasty on the gas.

The right tea and 
Hot water at a precise 
Timing every morning.
Body massage at will
And all the other free
Services one can avail 
With a marriage.

We shall have a son who
Would hate me for being 
Unfair to his mom.
I'll not waste my time in
Justifying my acts-

He'll have to tolerate it all.
Live up to my expectations.
Study hard to become 
A corporate slave and force 
Himself into a marriage 
With the girl I chose.

Maybe he can carry all
The soreness to stop
Looking me in the eyes.
He should have at least one
Victim card to play-
Can always go on about 
How unfair I was.

I hope he'd teach his son
How to treat his wife.
The tradition of toxicity 
Should go on and on.
The masculinity should 
Thrive. Chauvinism is
A fetish one has to
Aspire for.

Thick Necks

There's a war in the country 
That produces jute.
The supply of ropes is hit. 

The suicides are down
For two quarters now.
A matter of serious concern
For a democracy here.

Fresh diplomatic conciliations
Have to be initiated.
Interim arrangements have
To be made to revive 
The wisdom of nooses.

The glut of thick-necked
Opinions in the market.
The boneless tongues 
Blurting whatever their 
Mind suggests-

Students, farmers,
Labours, unions.
Bloody freaking onions
And oil prices-
Everything has got a
Brains these days.

When they feel they 
Run out of options.
When the choke of their 
Many opinions tighten
In their throats-
They would need a
Good catharsis.

So the ropes are needed 
Before the shimmering 
Hits the street.
And if protests break
Here-

The blade production
Will take a hit and
The other governments
Relying on us would be 
Pissed-

The free voices there
Will have nothing to
Rely on you see.
Blood-letting is still
Deemed as legitimate 
Treatment there for 
Whoever freely speaks.

Fart Philosophy

Bacteriophage is a virus
That infects bacteria.
But for its population 
As whole-
The effect is just a fart.

Bacteria infect humans
As well. There's a talk
Of even superbugs now.
But at a species level-
The effect is just a fart.

We humans fight for 
Land, go for wars.
Ruckus over a marriage 
Sex and children-

But the Earth goes on
Rotating unbothered.
At that level-
Even we're farts.

Issues of planets are
Farts at star level.
Issues of star are farts
At Galaxy level.

And ultimately, when
Everything stinks down 
To one thing--

All existentialism is 
Is a way of saying how
How we're just farts.

And all amped-up 
Self-pride is just 
The other way of saying 
How we're 'The Farts'.

Invasion

Everyone has heard every joke.
Everyone knows every fact.

All the stories are familiar to
Everyone and trivial knowledge 
Of a person is no surprise.

The reels and long streaks
Of scrolling have pounded 
Our heads in n out into a
Submission and there's 
No space for new music.

Everything looks hopelessly 
Familiar. Everything sounds 
Familiarly heard.

Where are the age-old
Storyteller? Where's that 
One person in the group who 
Knew all the dirty jokes?

Do we still have a someone 
Who brought all the unfamiliar 
Gossip from distant lands? 

Did every distinct character
Of a group got dissipated 
Into an influencer with
Millions of followers online?

Has the Internet killed it 
For us this early?

The distinct stories we were
All supposed to be- slowly 
Heading into a singularity.

Soon every tongue is 
Gonna be bleached.
Every personality will be
A giant monochrome.

All languages will fade into 
The monotone of English,
Our dreams will be coded
By a big corporation and-

We'll have to skip ads to
Have access our crude 
Thoughts.

09 April 2025

1799

I'm a 10-year-old boy.
My mother died last week.
It's hard to see my
Father sulk alone in
The Haveli.

The British are eying 
On Thousand-acres of
Zameen and these days 
Some of our own people 
Are 'Woke' overnight-

Ram Mohan Roy 
Specifically. He wants 
Us to voluntarily give up 
Our Zamindari like he did.

And of all other things, 
He's against child marriage 
And propagates widow 
Remarriage-- Chiii.

It boils my blood.

But I can't see my father 
Suffer you see.
He needs something to
Hold on to.
Someone to rely on.

So can you marry him
Please!!!

Since we're of the same 
Age and interested in
The same games..
If you kindly accept 
The proposal-

I can demand the toys
We need in Dahej.

The empty Haveli will be 
Our playground and 
We can forever be
Friends.

Apathy for Local News

Russia bombs Ukraine- 
1000 dead.
Earthquake in ASEAN- 
40O buried alive.

Crossfire in the border-
War is about to break.
Trump has put up
Sanctions- economy 
May tank.

What do you mean there's
A rape in next street?
What do you mean 
Three people died due to
Potholes this week?

Bring me a bone-chilling 
Disaster. An epidemic.
Bring me a recession.
At least a genocide or 
Plane crash with at least 
Hundred deaths.

Till it doesn't come up
In bold letters, heinous 
Graphic and an amped-up
Voice of a sold-out
Prime time anchor..

It's not news.
Not for me at least.

Suicides due to bullying. 
Child labour in a factory.
The broken roof of a
School in the village.
A dalit stone pelted--

How dare you expect me
To waste ounce of my
Sympathy on petty issues?

Give me a sex racket with
At least 200 minors involved.
Bring me a cave collapse 
With 100 trapped inside.
A train crash, a gas leak.
Better-- a pandemic.

Till the TV anchors and
Social media algorithms
Don't take up a pickaxe
To dig out my chest-
It's not news enough.

To damn with domestic 
Violence next door.
To damn with the cylinder 
Blast in the next street.
To damn with the honour 
Killing in the next village.

I've my Woofers On to 
Tone it all down for me and 
As of now I'm curious about 
What Jeffrey Dahmer does
In the next episode of
His Netflix series.

04 April 2025

Clap. Clap. Clap.

He rubs a pinch of tobacco
In his palm and claps out
The coarse chaff.
Clap. Clap. Clap.
Puts the tobacco in his
Mouth. It's midnight.

He rubs, claps, and puts it
In his mouth and abuses
My mom at night.
Clap, clap, clap in the
Dead of the night.

It's 3.15 in the morning.
The sound, slashing
The fierce dark.
Piercing through the sleep
Of mine.

Piercing through my skin.
A cold knife down my spine.
It's a masterclass on
How you ruin a young
Lad's life.

I hear my mom trying to
Hide her sobs.
In the morning, she
Looks away and doesn't
Look me in the eye.

It's sad that no one
Intervenes. It's sad days
Become years like that.

Clap, clap, clap in the
Dead of the night.
Tobacco should cause
Cancer.
But why hasn't it yet?

And thirty years go by.
My brother says how
He still grows weary upon
Hearing those claps.
I do too.

The trauma doesn't pass.
So doesn't my dad.
We go on carrying a
Broken glass in our bellies.
And clap, clap, clap..
It churns our insides
Every other night.


03 April 2025

Baba of Undies

My friend left his underwear 
In my penthouse.
I'd to use it to clean my bike.

He cracked a good deal 
At his company after that 
And got sponsored for 
A free Bangkok trip.

After a year, another friend 
Did the same. I'd put
The cloth to some use.
His business boomed too.

The word got around and
Suddenly all my friends 
And their friends paid a visit 
To leave their undies in
My house and everyone's 
Fortune turned.

Did I just become an
Underwear baba? 
Beats me but
People started visiting.

Sometimes, I had to 
Symbolically clean stuff with 
Their undies and they did
Well in life after that.

Then came the skeptics
A professor, a journalist,  
A man with a clipboard.  
They left nothing behind,  
To check my validity.  

Their stocks plummeted.  
Their lovers left.
One man misplaced  
His entire career.  

Now they, too, return,  
Sheepish, contrite,  
Holding their offerings  
Like wilted flowers.  

I nod. Accept the fabric 
Fate has woven.  
At this point,  
Who am I to question it?  

When divinity passes
Through you to lead a creed.
You accept the prophecy
To happily become a 
Baba of Undies.

Stink

You meet someone online.
Talk for days, fall in love.
Discuss dirty stuff and
Get naked on screen.

You fight, you argue 
You figure it out and fall
In love more fiercely to
Shag each other on video 
For months.

You then fall apart. Breakup. 
You just close the screen 
And there's an eternal divide.
Moving on seems easy-

But it gets to you.
Heart is heart, and you get
Frozen in a period of time.
You miss her eternally.

Her face, her eyes.
Hair, skin, bare bust 
And the way she touched 
Her crotch-

You imagine the way she
Would have touched you.
But how can you?
Touch is what you're
Most deprived.

This two-dimensional love..
The deprivation it came with.
It haunts you.

You shag yourself in
Her memory for years.
Her face fades. Letter by
Letter her name fades.

And one day it hits you.
She remains only in what
You can smell.
She's fused in the smell of 
Your semen with a hint of 
Urine.

What else could have 
Filled the vacuum?

Maybe that's the smell
Of all the hopeless romance.
Maybe it isn't.
Maybe it would have been 
Different if you had
Held her hand once.

Maybe be this is loneliness. 
Maybe that's how a 
Break up stinks.
Maybe that's how a
A touch-deprived story is
Supposed to end.

Maybe that's how 
Best of memories smell.
Maybe you never know.
Maybe that's why you
Take things in hand 
And do it again.

And maybe... that's why 
Everything goes on 
Smelling the same.

02 April 2025

The first time I knew I was alive

When you cut a newspaper in
A square and place a bow and
Arrow across two ends diagonally.

And paste the ends well with the
Rice paste prepared by mom.
You get a skeleton of a kite.

Then you poke two holes at
The junction of the bow and arrow.
And two holes parallely down-

You pass a thread across the
Holes- double the diagonal length
Of the kite.

Pull it out at the posterior end
To tie together the entire structure
To balance the centre of gravity-

You would need a reel-thread
From mom's sewing machine to
Set the kite in its course.

And for the first time, when
My kite soared high, it was
The first time I knew I was alive.