04 November 2025

Soft Ambitions

I feel tired. 
I sense my life choked
In my nose. 

I wonder how my 
Nana did it-
living alone in a farm 
for decades, 
attending to his cattle,
and narrating 
mythological stories 
whenever I asked. 

I can beat you blokes 
any day, both in 
eating and working, 
He'd say. 

He loved his buffaloes, 
cows, and hens, and 
He loved his lord Vitobha. 
His chores got him through, 
and his band of friends-
The bhajan mandali.

Sometimes late in the 
evening when I feel like 
Not eating and sleeping,
and not living-

From somewhere, 
the sound of his bicycle 
jolts me awake to a 
longing for the fritters 
He brought from 
The Saturday market. 

And once again, I start 
my life with small efforts. 
I get a pen, a poem.
A pan, an omelet-

The trick is to get going 
somehow-
The trick is to remember 
The soft ambition of
Touching the sky,
From all those days 
When he carried me
On his shoulders.