15 June 2026

Affection

I try to imagine you as 
a child. small hands, 
soft legs, two freshly grown 
teeth ready to bite anything 
that's in reach. 

Oh, the drool, the smile, 
and the loud, deliberate cries. 
I feel your cheeks between 
my fingers, but just then 
you pee and I'm asked to 
change your pants. 

And with all tenderness, 
I tend you. 
Your constant moving legs, 
my loosening grip over 
your waist.
I manage to handle your 
rebellion by effectively 
covering you in clothe. 
and give away 
the greatest smile.

That stupid smile stirs 
something ancient inside me.
A strange familiarity,
as though I have known you
before memory
invented names for us.

For a dangerous second,
I wonder if you were my
kid in a previous life?
But that thought seem to
be forbidden somehow.

But maybe some tenderness 
doesn't have boundaries.
Like you're an absolute 
baby sometimes and 
all I can do is hum you lullabies 
to pat you to sleep.