19 May 2025

Inability

I fall in love and don't 
Tell them.
Seems inappropriate.

I talk to them. 
Engage deeply.
They let me in and I let them
Know my vulnerabilities.

It's almost tempting to 
Have them in my life.
It's almost dreamy to have
Them by my side.

I make paper planes out of
Letters I write and 
Send them to the moon.

I craft reveries into 
Flowers and smell their 
Fragrance till my heavens 
Are adored with colours.

But it goes nowhere.

The boat full of fantasies 
Capsize.
Brick by brick the castle 
Of fancy starts to fall.

Falling would be good,
But things fade invisibly
To make me carry the scars
Of my pretentious 
Forgetfulness between 
My teeth.

You too are slipping 
Away now. And my inability
To stop you is up my 
Sleeves readily.

The butterflies of your 
Memories are poised for 
A reverse metamorphosis-

And I don't understand 
Why I'm more concerned 
About preserving you
In larval stage or pupal-
Than holding your
Completeness that's 
Already there.