29 May 2025

Fading

There's a memory of 
You and me.
Sitting by a lake.
Stream of water 
Flowing through our
Feet and you talking 
About an exotic fish.

I try to hold on to it.
I paint it daily in the 
Canvas of my mind.
Attend to details,
Fine-tune it to the way
It's supposed to look.

It's been a decade
With this carpentry 
And for the first time 
Now. This morning I've 
Forgotten your face. 

The shape of your 
Nose has faded out
Of my fancy.
Glint of your eyes 
Has disappeared in
The hiccups in my
Longing.

The tone of your
Voice seems to have
Embraced a void 
And your fragrance 
Has stopped triggering 
The saudede in that
Place beyond.

I try to hold onto your
Your silhouette at least.
Try to fill you in from
The archives.
But another year passes 
By and I find myself 
Painting the lake bland 
With me alone looking 
Vacantly in the distance.

Maybe I'm with thoughts 
Of that exotic fish
You talked about.
Not knowing you faded
Away mid-sentence-
Still too eager hear the
Next thing you'd want
To say. But there's 
Silence and silence 
And silence..