15 October 2025

Total Internal Reflection

When you watch 
yourself from within-
Loads and loads of
tar-loaded goo,
smothering you 
and drowning and
gulping you up.

You scream for help,
but from whom?

In an abyss that
echoes your voice 
and reflects a
person you have 
never met-

How do you escape
the absurdity
you've become?

You, yourself,
spreading for miles 
and miles-
an infinite loop
that's bent, twisted,
and turned within 
yourself-

A snare,
a void,
an emptiness.
or an open sky?

And that's a tragedy,
or emancipation,
or imprisonment-
you never know.

Wherever you turn,
you end up in yourself.
You are trapped or free,
you never know.

Travelling in yourself
to end up repeatedly
in yourself-
this re-enforced
concrete of self-

Does that make you
a better person or 
an infinite loop of 
total internal reflection 
pushes you into
narcissism?