no good.
You know you can't
do it.
The judgment has
been passed and
you've accepted it.
But you gotta try it
one more time.
You know it's for no
good but you conjure
that last ounce of energy
and give it a try.
You do it with all the
shame and disinterest.
You do it, and you
see it crumble again.
You have seen this
innumerable times before
and this is no surprise.
You anticipated this.
You knew this is exactly
how it was supposed
to happen, and it did.
And you are disappointed
in yourself again.
You trusted yourself,
but can you, again?
This is sad.
This is a new fall,
a new low,
a deeper abyss you
don't wanna stare at.
And then you smile.
the hollowest smile
in the world.
Only you know how
Hollow it is-
It ain't a black hole.
Yet, equally efficient
in consuming light.