He rubs a pinch of tobacco
In his palm and claps out
The coarse chaff.
Clap. Clap. Clap.
Puts the tobacco in his
Mouth. It's midnight.
He rubs, claps, and puts it
In his mouth and abuses
My mom at night.
Clap, clap, clap in the
Dead of the night.
It's 3.15 in the morning.
The sound, slashing
The fierce dark.
Piercing through the sleep
Of mine.
Piercing through my skin.
A cold knife down my spine.
It's a masterclass on
How you ruin a young
Lad's life.
I hear my mom trying to
Hide her sobs.
In the morning, she
Looks away and doesn't
Look me in the eye.
It's sad that no one
Intervenes. It's sad days
Become years like that.
Clap, clap, clap in the
Dead of the night.
Tobacco should cause
Cancer.
But why hasn't it yet?
And thirty years go by.
My brother says how
He still grows weary upon
Hearing those claps.
I do too.
The trauma doesn't pass.
So doesn't my dad.
We go on carrying a
Broken glass in our bellies.
And clap, clap, clap..
It churns our insides
Every other night.
Unsung Seagull
04 April 2025
03 April 2025
Baba of Undies
My friend left his underwear
In my penthouse.
I'd to use it to clean my bike.
He cracked a good deal
At his company after that
And got sponsored for
A free Bangkok trip.
After a year, another friend
Did the same. I'd put
The cloth to some use.
His business boomed too.
The word got around and
Suddenly all my friends
And their friends paid a visit
To leave their undies in
My house and everyone's
Fortune turned.
Did I just become an
Underwear baba?
Beats me but
People started visiting.
Sometimes, I had to
Symbolically clean stuff with
Their undies and they did
Well in life after that.
Then came the skeptics
A professor, a journalist,
A man with a clipboard.
They left nothing behind,
To check my validity.
Their stocks plummeted.
Their lovers left.
One man misplaced
His entire career.
Now they, too, return,
Sheepish, contrite,
Holding their offerings
Like wilted flowers.
I nod. Accept the fabric
Fate has woven.
At this point,
Who am I to question it?
When divinity passes
Through you to lead a creed.
You accept the prophecy
To happily become a
Baba of Undies.
Stink
You meet someone online.
Talk for days, fall in love.
Discuss dirty stuff and
Get naked on screen.
You fight, you argue
You figure it out and fall
In love more fiercely to
Shag each other on video
For months.
You then fall apart. Breakup.
You just close the screen
And there's an eternal divide.
Moving on seems easy-
But it gets to you.
Heart is heart, and you get
Frozen in a period of time.
You miss her eternally.
Her face, her eyes.
Hair, skin, bare bust
And the way she touched
Her crotch-
You imagine the way she
Would have touched you.
But how can you?
Touch is what you're
Most deprived.
This two-dimensional love..
The deprivation it came with.
It haunts you.
You shag yourself in
Her memory for years.
Her face fade. Letter by
Letter her name fades.
And one day it hits you.
She remains only in what
You can smell.
She's fused in the smell of
Your semen with a hint of
Urine.
What else could have
Filled the vacuum?
Maybe that's the smell
Of all the hopeless romance.
Maybe it isn't.
Maybe you would have
Been different if you had
Held her hand.
Maybe be this is loneliness.
Maybe that's how a
Break up stinks.
Maybe that's how a
A touch-deprived story is
Supposed to end.
Maybe that's how
Best of memories smell.
Maybe you never know.
Maybe that's why you
Take things in hand
And do it again.
And maybe... that's why
Everything goes on
Smelling the same.
02 April 2025
The first time I knew I was alive
When you cut a newspaper in
A square and place a bow and
Arrow across two ends diagonally.
And paste the ends well with the
Rice paste prepared by mom.
You get a skeleton of a kite.
Then you poke two holes at
The junction of the bow and arrow.
And two holes parallely down-
You pass a thread across the
Holes- double the diagonal length
Of the kite.
Pull it out at the posterior end
To tie together the entire structure
To balance the centre of gravity-
You would need a reel-thread
From mom's sewing machine to
Set the kite in its course.
And for the first time, when
My kite soared high, it was
The first time I knew I was alive.
A square and place a bow and
Arrow across two ends diagonally.
And paste the ends well with the
Rice paste prepared by mom.
You get a skeleton of a kite.
Then you poke two holes at
The junction of the bow and arrow.
And two holes parallely down-
You pass a thread across the
Holes- double the diagonal length
Of the kite.
Pull it out at the posterior end
To tie together the entire structure
To balance the centre of gravity-
You would need a reel-thread
From mom's sewing machine to
Set the kite in its course.
And for the first time, when
My kite soared high, it was
The first time I knew I was alive.
30 March 2025
Zara
Zara
(Love Your Curves)
If you pedal through the passes
Of Himalayas. Curve after curve
The mountains unfurl their
Wilderness.
And if you could reach Hanle in
Ladakh and ready for more curves.
You would find Umling La-
The highest motorable road in the world.
Adorable wilderness.
The bare mountains oozing elgance-
We wish we could cloth them all.
But we can clothe you.
We 'Love Your Curves' too.
Visit the nearest Zara store soon.
Time Traveller
The time traveller moves
A stone. I wake up in
My New York apartment
With Ana de Armas
Asking what I want for
Breakfast.
The time traveller moves
A chair. En route to
Colonised Mars.
They ask me to be an
Interim president there.
Hands down.
No complains.
Time traveller does
Nothing this time.
He had a chance to do
Something but bored,
Tired, procrastinates
And sleeps.
I end up in misery here.
Broke, ugly, single
And still choking on
Poems.
The third one is me.
Haven't realised it yet but
I've travelled to the
Present of this timeline
For nothing.
Identifying Hope
When a postman
Comes in search of an
Address in a war torn
City.
All the Houses grazed
To dust.. Still able
To find that bombed
House..
Who's the refugee here?
The bodies?
The postman?
The letter? The sender?
Or the flower that's
Trying to grow battling
The hopeless silence
In the rubble?
He keeps the letter
Under the shadow of
The flower and
Returns.
What better way to
Take cognizance of
A life than delivering
A letter?
To seek hope when
There's none.
Even if it's ridiculously
Symbolic..
That act outweighs
Hope itself. Life itself.
The war itself.
29 March 2025
Refusal
I refuse to look you in
The eye. I refuse to
Let my feelings run wild.
Your slender hands and
Gleaming face.
Tiny feet and the way you
Sway when you walk...
I refuse to conjure the
Moon. I refuse to
Soak my fantasies in
The blue sky.
I like listening to you.
I like talking to you...
But somehow I refuse
To use the other four
Lettered word for the
Things I adore in you.
Don't know why falling
In love with you feels
Like a crime.
Don't know why I think
Your name would hesitate
To sit beside mine.
I don't know what
Holds me back.
Believe me I've even
Deliberately tried.
My hesitation to answer
The question you're.
The mystery you've become
That I refuse to solve..
Thrusting words to this
Feeling feels like a crime.
Yet you fleet in every
Act of mine.
I refuse to look you in
The eye. I refuse to
Let my feelings run wild.
28 March 2025
Child Labour
My son is not 14 yet.
He can't work.
Government orders.
He needs free and
Compulsory education.
Government orders.
Upon that, he can't
Even work in hazardous
Industry till he's 18.
Uhh! What a waste.
His contribution could have
Added some Ammonium
Nitrate to the world..
But alas! We got one
Bomb less because
Of government orders.
The chaos in the world
Is threatened by too
Many takers of peace.
Pussies..!
Better to settle in Africa
To take advantage of
His small hands.
Might at least be helpful
In rathole mining of
Some high-value ores.
His exploits need to
Be capitalized at least
Over Gold and Diamond.
I mean, if adolescence
Is not wasted on
Disruptive acts-
The age is dust
Scattered by farts.
27 March 2025
Descendence
We were direct descendants
Of Gods. Apple of Brahma's
Eyes and Gospel of Alla's times.
And the Sinned Children of Christ
Inhabiting Holy Mother Earth-
Around which everything revolved.
Then HMS Beagle reached
Galápagos Islands.
Darwin declared us as
Descendants of monkeys.
Such blasphemy to
Make us slaves of our own
Reasonable mind?
We could heal the wounds,
Live longer, and not just walk
But fly on in and out of water.
But how dare we live on our own
Terms now? How dare we
Solve metaphysical problems
On our own?
It was Godly to die en masse
In famines, epidemics, and
Religious wars.
How dare we associate
Ourselves with monkeys and
Fall down to newer highs?
Of Gods. Apple of Brahma's
Eyes and Gospel of Alla's times.
And the Sinned Children of Christ
Inhabiting Holy Mother Earth-
Around which everything revolved.
Then HMS Beagle reached
Galápagos Islands.
Darwin declared us as
Descendants of monkeys.
Such blasphemy to
Make us slaves of our own
Reasonable mind?
We could heal the wounds,
Live longer, and not just walk
But fly on in and out of water.
But how dare we live on our own
Terms now? How dare we
Solve metaphysical problems
On our own?
It was Godly to die en masse
In famines, epidemics, and
Religious wars.
How dare we associate
Ourselves with monkeys and
Fall down to newer highs?
25 March 2025
Human Misery
Chengis Khan is credited
For controlling an eventual
Population explosion as
He killed millions.
Norman Borlaug is blamed
For the Green Revolution as
He might have saved a billion
From starvation.
The famines and plagues
Have eaten up a good number
Of people often. To keep the
Population in check.
And something as simple as
Washing hands with soap
Has doubled life expectancy
Within no time.
Where should we draw the line?
Who should we categorically
Blame for the miseries of
Humankind?
The pandemics, disasters.
Modern medicine and the
Wars that were stopped.
Could we have planned them all?
Should we think at a species
Level at all or leave it to chance
To simply eat, mate, reproduce
Till we're flushed into the
Existential indifference?
Or we should up the game
To blame someone better?
Like the stars, planets or aliens.
The spaceships anyway
Are on their way.
Worship
When I see a flower bud.
I pluck it and put it in water to
Force it bloom within hours-
I've a God to please.
The vibrant petals lose
The color after some time.
The wilting kicks in.
The petals fall inward.
Turn black and dry out
Into a demise eventually.
Should I be held responsible?
I should be. Said the Lord.
The sheer cruelty of plucking
A plant's reproductive organs-
Phallus for phallus he said
And hung me by the balls.
He had a target to reach
Today and I was the last
Sacrifice to his Overlord.
Everyone up the chain is
Interested in phallus to have
Themselves pleased?
Explains a lot phallus worship
In our traditions.
Seems at one point of time
All worship must have been
Mindlessly throwing around
One genital at the other.
No wonder why all the
Religions are a cover-up
Jobs like fake orgasms.
Brand Poem
Read just the left part
Poem based on company Taglines.
Poem based on company Taglines.
To "Taste the rainbow" ( Skittles)
To "Fly the friendly skies". (United Airlines)
To "Have it your way"-- (Burger King)
"Think Different" (Apple)
"Think Big" (IMAX)
"Think Outside the Bun" (Taco Bell)
"Eat Fresh". (Subway)
"Belong Anywhere" (Airbnb)
"Everywhere you want to be" (Visa)
"Impossible is Nothing" (Adidas)
"Live in your world. Play in ours." (PlayStation)
"All for Freedom. Freedom for All." (Harley Davidson)
"Quality never goes out of style." (Levi's)
"Go Further" (Ford)
"Obey your thirst" (Sprite)
"Challenge everything" (Electronic Arts)
"Let's go places" (Toyota)
"We try harder" (Avis)
"Yes We Can" (Obama 2008)
"Nothing runs like a Deere" (John Deere)
"Gotta catch 'em all!" (Pokemon)
"Open happiness" (Coca-Cola)
"Good to the last drop." (Maxwell House)
"Just Do It" (Nike)
"Because you're worth it" to be in (L'OREAL)
"The Happiest Place on Earth". (Disneyland)
To "Fly the friendly skies". (United Airlines)
To "Have it your way"-- (Burger King)
"Think Different" (Apple)
"Think Big" (IMAX)
"Think Outside the Bun" (Taco Bell)
"Eat Fresh". (Subway)
"Belong Anywhere" (Airbnb)
"Everywhere you want to be" (Visa)
"Impossible is Nothing" (Adidas)
"Live in your world. Play in ours." (PlayStation)
"All for Freedom. Freedom for All." (Harley Davidson)
"Quality never goes out of style." (Levi's)
"Go Further" (Ford)
"Obey your thirst" (Sprite)
"Challenge everything" (Electronic Arts)
"Let's go places" (Toyota)
"We try harder" (Avis)
"Yes We Can" (Obama 2008)
"Nothing runs like a Deere" (John Deere)
"Gotta catch 'em all!" (Pokemon)
"Open happiness" (Coca-Cola)
"Good to the last drop." (Maxwell House)
"Just Do It" (Nike)
"Because you're worth it" to be in (L'OREAL)
"The Happiest Place on Earth". (Disneyland)
16 March 2025
A Marriage
Like my father puts it.
Maybe I would've joined
The Air Force.
Married by 25 and had
Two kids, if not three.
Named them against
The sensitivities of everyone.
Beaten them up twice and
Loved them only thrice.
Life would've taken a
Backseat that way to fizzle out
In the background of a
Not so miserable family.
I wouldn't have given
A weighed meaning to
My words and wouldn't
Have expected too much
From this life.
Two or three properties to
Boast. Drinking every night
To abuse my wife.
Advising others on why
One should marry early
Would always be on cards.
But nah. I had to take a long
Academic path.
Grow a knack for overthinking.
Only to sit alone on
Park bench this morning.
To answer all the imaginary
Existential questions of
Marriage instead of facing
My father upfront.
Taj Mahal
When Shah Jahan was
Imprisoned by his own son.
For wasting public money on
Extravagant architecture..
Held captive in a cell facing
The Taj Mahal so that he could
Wither away to death
Contemplating his creation..
Did the White-Giant diminish
Into a hateful nothingness
Or it became a point of
His pride?
Swooned daily by it's
Magnificence. The beauty
Growing louder day by day
Till he himself became
The shadow of this very
Entity he commissioned.
Leaving historians with
The ultimate question of
Who's bigger?
The dream or dreamer.
13 March 2025
Meaning
Five thousand years ago
A bored little girl,
On the banks of Indus
In the North Western province.
Wrote poetry on slabs
Of stone and threw them
Around.
Meaningless strokes of
Etchings that meant
Only relief from daily
Chores.
Millennia later,
Archaeologists, Historians
Getting hold of those to
Decipher the meaning.
Reaching consensus over
The assumption that
They're records of day to
Day transactions.
Why didn't they consider
The possibility of innocent
Folly of a bored little girl?
Did we grow so high on
Our own intellect that
We're compelled to give
Meaning to everything?
Is that why these civilizations
Fall, evolve, and arise?
Maybe yes. If it is yes.
Then it's such a tragic yes.
Next Frame
Right here, this moment.
Under the yellow light.
While chills of December
Teases our passion..
What would you wanna
Remember from this
Passing time?
The rustle of leaves
Against passing traffic.
The elasticity of desire
Across our eyes.
The door of my house
That wants to open and
A hot cup of coffee that
Wants to be brewed to
Host you once.
What should we do with
This hesitant longing
That makes us stand
Below my apartment?
If someone should take
A photograph of us now.
You in red chudi and
Me in yellow-T and jeans..
Years later, if someone
Should See it and wonder,
Where the next frame
Went?
What should I say?
We ended up together
Or just turned into
Familiar strangers?
11 March 2025
College Hostel Holi
Holi would begin early in
The morning with some
Asshole splashing
Colours while you were
Still in bed.
Then you went to Mess
For breakfast. You could
Barely finish it and
You were mobbed in turns
With colours.
The hostel Garden would
Be filled with water in
Abundance by 9.30 and
The colours would be
Done with by 10.
Holi in college was proper
Only when they dumped
You in the mud and kicked
Till every major pore got
Some dirt.
After many mishaps and
Localised fights.
After cloths were torn
And everyone roamed
In undies for hours...
After the failed human
Pyramids and smearing
Of mud on hostel warden's
Bald head and stripping
Naked the most popular
Senior..we got to
The burning of a huge
Caricature of 'Kamanna'
Specifically designed
Wiith cucumber penis
And brinjals for balls-
Everyone threw the remains
Of the clothes on that
One tree in the garden.
Seemed our yearly catharsis
Could only be handled by
A non-animal entity.
Heart is Art
Stabbing is not easy.
And stabbing right in
The heart is a skilled job,
Needs a lot of practice.
Ribs will come in the way
To begin with.
And kitchen knife is
Not enough to penetrate
The sternum.
You could go for the
Throat to kill or stab
Randomly on the torso
To open an artery.
But we're not interested
In the kill, are we?
We gotta get through to
The heart. Heart is art.
So when you practice
The same on the dead bodies
In the mortuary with a
Special knife smuggled
From Russia. And then..
You wait for weeks to
Isolate a victim..
Constantly running a
Simulation of her chest
To thrust the dagger
Between 4th and 5th rib.
And at the right minute
You don't flinch, and you
Don't blink.
The reminder to yourself
Of a blunt puncture with
Right force and angle..
Then to draw it back with
Same precision with not a
Sound from her mouth.
Just the squirt of blood
Oozing out gushing..
You fancy that sound.
You smile at your art that
Just assured you the right
Frequency of life leaving.
Water
Water was always short.
We had to carry it from
Distances.
My Attya was fierce with
Her water fetching
Endeavours.
Two pots. One on head
And the other on the waist.
Distances as long as 2-3 km.
Multiple such trips daily.
She wouldn't let us waste
An extra mug.
Bathing daily was such an
Unheard fad back then.
The first time I could carry
A big pot on my shoulder.
It was a celebration.
Then I learnt handling
A bicycle.
Eight pots in a go was
A luxury. We even
Constructed our house by
Fetching water like that.
Then the government
Put up taps and
The motors came up.
Now there's abundant
Supply of water
Without much effort.
Though we overuse,
It feels weird to
Waste water even now.
Feels her voice from
The Kitchen calls out for
Wasting it.
Water scarcity is function
Of accessibility.
If everyone is made to
Walk a distance to fetch
Water..
First thing they'd give up
Would be bathing.
Then they'd resume
Defecation in the open.
10 March 2025
Passenger Train
I travelled in the passenger
Train this morning.
The tightly packed general coach
Teeming with labourers.
Shabby clothes, smell of
Alcohol. Loud desi music.
Many sitting on the floor.
Reclinerd near the toilets.
A guy sleeping near the door.
A few toppling over him while
Boarding down. He's not
Bothered by their cussing.
Two sitting at the door,
Swaying thier legs out.
Taking a fight with whoever
Is spitting from the window.
Young boys with foul tongues
Laden with lunch boxes.
Headed to earn daily wages.
The system got them
Before they could grow up.
Every face is almost a mirror.
A guilt-ridden awareness
Keeps reflecting my relative
Eliteness.
Two college girls in Burkha
Dare enter this male abode.
But withdraw suddenly as
There wasn't any space.
I was more anxious by their
Advent than they themselves.
Because I know all about
The male gaze?
Seems rich of me to think
Something like that.
Who am I to judge their
Lives anyway?
The train spits us off shortly.
Everyone starts walking.
I see the swaying lunchboxes
In the hands of those boys.
The crumpled ticket I throw
Falls just beside the dustbin.
My indifference gleams in it
As I walk off.
Last Day
On the last day.
We unwillingly kissed.
Got naked and
Entered the shower.
We rinsed each other.
Made love like we're
Hosting a funeral in
Ourselves.
The hollow cascade of
Longing..
The smoke out of
Embers that were dying.
We couldn't look in
The eyes could we?
This repulsion for
Each other. The sparks
That don't invoke
Emotions now..
The unloving that feels
On the skin and under it..
Rather, I feel nothing.
There's something missing.
I say whoever pits love
Against carnal sensations
Is wrong. Whoever
Preaches purity is wrong.
It's all messy and dirty.
Imperfect and wild.
And if you don't feel her
On your skin..
It's not love.
If the blood doesn't rush
To your head at her
Instance and if the veins
Don't bulge...and if you
Don't get a mild erection
Whenever she crosses
Your mind..
It's not love. Atleast,
It's not love enough.
09 March 2025
The Almighty Lord
Before he had any name.
Before he became
Predominantly male.
He was formless.
He was nature once.
Then a mountain, a hill.
A stone worshiped on
Field or street.
The erstwhile omnipotent
Omnipresent, omniscient.
Now divided, shred and
Shrunk into certain
Holy books, walls, domes
Tribes and religions.
When did he became
Absolutely parochial?
The poor must wait in line
For the darshan while
The rich can bribe their
Way into sacrosanct?
Menstruating women
And widows are declared
Impure too along with
Some other castes?
The growing distance from
The truth that he himself
Was supposed to preach.
Our God. The Almighty Lord...
Then infinite. There after
Limitless, unbound and
Now barely independent.
Who's gonna believe him?
But everyone does.
Now more fiercely than ever.
The supposed redemption
To closeted bigotry-
What a downfall.
23 February 2025
Life is 10th class
One more year of struggle
And life would be set-
The preparatory exam is
Due tomorrow and you
Haven't read anything yet.
Teachers say you should
Study hard.
The principal says yours
Is the worst batch.
You try to put yourself into
Blinders to stay focused
But Neha keeps coming
To mind.
There's still a lot of syllabus
To cover but all your
Head can muster is ways to
Wish her "all the best".
Unable to recall the value
Of Sin 30 and Cos 60..
Unable to understand
What's "Quite India" all about..
Somewhere you're still that
Teen of class 10.
Secretly praying for grace
Marks, you still believe that
Choosing humanities would
Make your life easy.
But you don't know yet,
How misery does salsa
Even there.
19 February 2025
Ray of Hope
The words have decided
To abscond from the
Pages of my diary.
The photographs have
Decided to fade away from
The old albums.
An invisible hand holds
The face of all the memories
Against a wall and rubs it up
Till the skin comes off.
What's left is a white blanket
Of salt- sour and saline.
But despite the douse
And despite the dusk.
Something inside makes
A strong appeal for
Resurgence.
Who's there? It asks.
Who's there?
And there's a subtle
Knock from the other side.
And that seems enough.
It's someone's presence
That challenges the
The stink of inevitable..
Like fragrance.
Like a single breath is
Mightier than death.
A thought of you beats
The shit out of oblivion.
Two Emotions
If you laugh when you
Badly wanna cry.
Is it still sadness?
And sink within when you
Really wanna laugh it out.
It's still happiness?
And when you cry so
Hard sometimes.
Your tears flowing down
Your nose.
Mixing with the nasal
Fluid and finding
Way to your mouth.
The salty taste that
Invokes mother's
Brutal beatings from
Your childhood...
The silent laugh from
Your eyes that doesn't
Translate on your lips-
What do you call it?
This gap in your
Language that can't
Handle two emotions
At once.
What do you call it?
One Language
In the house that was
Cozy and vast.
We had 10,000 windows.
Maybe more.
Then they said,
Tinting with aluminium
Frames would be nice.
One at a time,
over the years,
The clean blue sky
Turned pink, red, pale
And what-not.
Before we could realize
What was at play,
That's what the nation
Wants they said.
You gotta see through
Our eyes and speak
Through our tongues.
"One Nation.
One Language."
And when they gave
The final makeover to
Our last window,
The last hope of clean light
Shone bright at our faces.
But we didn't have a
Vocabulary of our own
To scream a protest.
And when the last word of
My language fell flat on
The road- with the final
Window down.
They checked if the last
Person can dream in
My lang and reciprocate.
And when there was
Nothing..
They hosted a funeral on
The graveyard of our
Tongues to celebrate
National integrity..
Unity in diversity was
The theme.
16 February 2025
Om Mangalam
In my region, everyone's
Surname is of a distant village.
And if you ask them why
They'd tell you a story of
How their ancestors killed
Someone and fled their
Original settlement.
My own Lineage goes back
To a neighboring state.
My grandfather's
Great-Grandfather killed
Someone and fled his village.
Everyone has the same story.
Most of them at least.
And I hope it's the same
Across the country.
Or maybe across the world.
We're all refugees it seems.
Guilty of crimes.
Seeking a place to hide.
Maybe the entire world
Is an asylum like that.
Maybe that's how the
Civilizations here began.
Maybe we fled Mars after
Killing all the trees.
Guilty of doing the same here.
GENES!!!
Maybe be the first man on
Earth was called John Mars
At some point of time.
Or perhaps he was a
South-Indian named Sreenu.
Aka Mangalam Sreenu.
And maybe that's why
Mars is always pissed off
In our astro profiles.
Mangalam Sreenu is antagonist
In the movie Puspa
15 February 2025
Shooting Blanks
Picasso had a revolver
To shoot blanks at whoever
Asked the meaning of
His paintings.
Out of frustration he
Loaded it for real once,
To shoot whoever asks
For a meaning.
But no one asked
Any questions that day.
Just smiled at his art
And moved on.
He felt so violated that
He held the gun to his
Temple for quite a while
That night.
At the final moment,
It occurred to him to
Paint something for
One last time.
"A revolver that shot
Flowers when fired".
The abstract was so good
He decided not to die.
Then it was sold for a
Record price.
And when someone
Asked what's the meaning.
He again shot blanks to
Convey how each painting
Saved his life.
07 February 2025
Her Superlatives
The way they call her a
Juicy meat-
Dogs must be feeling
Her between their teeth.
Someone said she's a
Cute pussy-cat,
Rats must be terrified of
Her presence at night.
Pristine as primordial fire.
She saves demigods from
Conditional hypothermia?
Soothing as breeze.
Light as a bird's feather.
Intoxicating like a flower.
Someone even called her
Soft as a baby's butt.
And the way they touch
Baby bottoms on live TV..
She must feel abused
Everytime there's a
Diaper-ad.
06 February 2025
Ochre
Ochre-faced dreams haunt me.
I try to remember why I call it
Ochre but I can't recall.
The quest takes me to an ancient
Cave. Pitch dark and only a
Kerosene torch to look ahead.
The smell of soot, cough and
Ancient cold in tattered clothes.
I hold the torch to the walls-
The Cave-Paintings in red dye.
Hunting, Killing, and boiling
Cauldrons with bodies..
A sudden slam of pale face at me.
It's my History teacher yelling
"Ochre is Ferrous oxide..
Mineral used in cave paintings."
Ancient piss tightens my bladder.
I wake up. 10th class history paper
And there's that question.
Occhre I write. A caveman comes
Running and slaps me for the
Spelling mistake I made.
Suddenly I am in a class at
The edge of a mountain.
Writing ochre a hundred times.
Only question in mind.. why is
English ma'am naked?
The PE sir charges at me with
Cuss words after that thought.
Seems they're a thing from ancient
Times. But why the hell he would
Speak correct English this time?
22 January 2025
Why Not?
We live in poems and die.
We dance sometimes and
Sometimes cry.
There are drums and guitars
In the corner. Knives and
Nooses on the other.
Divine worship and the
Invocation of Satan that
Goes hand in hand..
We're no one's favorite.
Hate can live long enough
Here. Love can readily die.
Romanticism is our kidnaper
And we got Stockholm
Syndrome diagnosed.
Poetry is a spectrum to
Choke on in search of
Meaning of life.
The wormholes placed in
Our words to enter one world
And exit through the other..
The full exploration of
The universe on our platter
May seem sweet.
But it's Salty and Sour.
And toxic at times.
Why so you may ask.
And our reply would
Always be a 'Why Not?'
We dance sometimes and
Sometimes cry.
There are drums and guitars
In the corner. Knives and
Nooses on the other.
Divine worship and the
Invocation of Satan that
Goes hand in hand..
We're no one's favorite.
Hate can live long enough
Here. Love can readily die.
Romanticism is our kidnaper
And we got Stockholm
Syndrome diagnosed.
Poetry is a spectrum to
Choke on in search of
Meaning of life.
The wormholes placed in
Our words to enter one world
And exit through the other..
The full exploration of
The universe on our platter
May seem sweet.
But it's Salty and Sour.
And toxic at times.
Why so you may ask.
And our reply would
Always be a 'Why Not?'
20 January 2025
Prayers
Give me a heart that can
Bear longing and mind that
Can handle parting.
Give me legs that can endure
This tread and shoulder
That can carry intentions
That are decent.
And when the skies of
Separation cry a light so bright.
Seas of betrayal heave waves
Beyond fathomable heights.
Give me eyes that can't
Go blind and hands that
Can swim through the
Turbulent times.
May the tears of yesterday
Not seep in today and
The lure of promised laugh
Not hail on the fragility of
The present.
My wishes are ordinary and
Prayers are simple.
May thou bless with wings
That can take me high
And an attitude that keeps me
Grounded to remind me
Where I belong.
17 January 2025
Enchantment
What eyes have cast a bad spell
On me. I do not know. I stand in front
Of the mirror often and smile.
What shadows have colored
My beliefs. I do not know.
I question myself often and sigh.
There are doodles in the
Last pages of the notebook.
There's a name dancing on my lips-
I don't want to say aloud.
Fresh bloom of roses in my garden.
The lilies are open for an affair.
What witch has unleashed her
Enchanted cats on me,
My head full of rats is on riot.
The resistance inside asks if
It can bell the cat and I almost budge
To the onslaught of demands but
Something tells me to loosen up
A bit. I do not know what makes
Me go crazy these days-
Just wanna throw my hands
In air and artlessly dance.
What shadows have colored
My beliefs. I do not know.
I question myself often and sigh.
There are doodles in the
Last pages of the notebook.
There's a name dancing on my lips-
I don't want to say aloud.
Fresh bloom of roses in my garden.
The lilies are open for an affair.
What witch has unleashed her
Enchanted cats on me,
My head full of rats is on riot.
The resistance inside asks if
It can bell the cat and I almost budge
To the onslaught of demands but
Something tells me to loosen up
A bit. I do not know what makes
Me go crazy these days-
Just wanna throw my hands
In air and artlessly dance.
16 January 2025
bRAINY
Hand lingers more than
It should.
Eyes go beyond whatever
My mind can't interpret.
Where does the wisdom
Lie though? In seeing things
As they are or re-imagining
Them into something more?
The bricks and bones of this
Dilapidated hut with a brain.
What more can this be?
A hand's yearning for another..
A phallus longing to fit into
Desperation of another to
Produce something that
Comes out crying.
The bare act of feeding
Famished Tongues was
Translated into different tastes
And now we sit here asking
Existential questions like
Condoms having flavors.
Other species must feel
Sorry for us for having a
Brain that overthinks.
Mating, eating, shitting in the
Open and not bothering
About a sleep schedule.
By letting us think that
We're the top in the chain-
They seem to be enjoying
A higher order of evolution
Anyday.
It should.
Eyes go beyond whatever
My mind can't interpret.
Where does the wisdom
Lie though? In seeing things
As they are or re-imagining
Them into something more?
The bricks and bones of this
Dilapidated hut with a brain.
What more can this be?
A hand's yearning for another..
A phallus longing to fit into
Desperation of another to
Produce something that
Comes out crying.
The bare act of feeding
Famished Tongues was
Translated into different tastes
And now we sit here asking
Existential questions like
Condoms having flavors.
Other species must feel
Sorry for us for having a
Brain that overthinks.
Mating, eating, shitting in the
Open and not bothering
About a sleep schedule.
By letting us think that
We're the top in the chain-
They seem to be enjoying
A higher order of evolution
Anyday.
Wish we could be friends again
Before I saw rainbows
In your eyes and
Bloom of roses in
My heart.
There was an island
Where we could casually
Talk, laugh, cuss and
Gossip.
There wasn't anything
Special about the things
You did.
Not receiving a call for
Weeks wasn't an issue.
Even talking to you
For hours didn't build up
Any expectations.
Then a fantasy grew.
Things changed.
Our island got infested
By butterflies.
And when you ask why
Can't we be friends..
I don't know what to say.
The dangle of earrings,
Carve of your lips.
God! How your smile is
Enchanting these days..
I wish I can ignore
The strands of your hair
Caressing your cheeks.
I wish your persona
In the black attire
Doesn't hamper my
Heartbeat..
If you can tell me
Convincingly why the
Hell we can't be a thing..
I'll tell you exactly why
Can't we be friends
Again.
Till then adios my
To be or not to be
Friend/lover with an L.
Adulting
Somewhere I'm still a
Confused boy who's
Not yet bothered about
The consequences.
I refuse to be a grown
Adult man.
Still biking around the
Supposed places with
My BFF, still believing
All the fun will be
Permanent..
The urge to become
A shepherd in the
Himalayas doesn't
Subside.
The longing to be a
Monk as an escape to
This reality is still on
Cards.
Somewhere the kid in
Me, running in the
Narrow streets of
My village with a tyre..
Has seen the adult me
Grow wings.
I flap and sour high.
Dive down screaming..
The air rushing to my
Face and tears drying
In the periphery of my
Eyes.
I lock eyes with him
And nod.
He smiles in approval.
Heck of a life.
Confused boy who's
Not yet bothered about
The consequences.
I refuse to be a grown
Adult man.
Still biking around the
Supposed places with
My BFF, still believing
All the fun will be
Permanent..
The urge to become
A shepherd in the
Himalayas doesn't
Subside.
The longing to be a
Monk as an escape to
This reality is still on
Cards.
Somewhere the kid in
Me, running in the
Narrow streets of
My village with a tyre..
Has seen the adult me
Grow wings.
I flap and sour high.
Dive down screaming..
The air rushing to my
Face and tears drying
In the periphery of my
Eyes.
I lock eyes with him
And nod.
He smiles in approval.
Heck of a life.
15 January 2025
Sense of Aestheticism
This friend in school with
Same kind of mad.
After reading a couple of
Same books and going
High on some philosophical
Quotes.
We tried to delve into the
Mysteries of metaphysical
Paradoxes against the
Volatile dance of our
Teenage hormones.
On the last day of school,
We climbed on the roof
Of sixth class to stay there
Till the orange sun
Disappeared below the
Horizon.
The sense of aestheticism
That got to us then-
We've been chasing it
For over a decade and
Half now.
Not tired of the beauty
Or bonhomie.. The things
We've experienced and
The places we've explored..
Just yesterday when we
Biked hard to catch a
Sunset on the beach
In Manipal..
We missed it because
He wanted to change
To his shorts first.
Can you believe that?
Enraged, Disappointed
I lie on the sand.
He too understands what
We missed.
But that's all right.
Good that we know what
We've missed.
Good that we know
What are we gonna miss
If we don't pursue.
That's what keeps you
Going right?
The curiosity that fuels
Possibilities..
How biking in the Himalayas
Can always start with
A feeble admiration for
Sunsets from above a
Classroom.
Same kind of mad.
After reading a couple of
Same books and going
High on some philosophical
Quotes.
We tried to delve into the
Mysteries of metaphysical
Paradoxes against the
Volatile dance of our
Teenage hormones.
On the last day of school,
We climbed on the roof
Of sixth class to stay there
Till the orange sun
Disappeared below the
Horizon.
The sense of aestheticism
That got to us then-
We've been chasing it
For over a decade and
Half now.
Not tired of the beauty
Or bonhomie.. The things
We've experienced and
The places we've explored..
Just yesterday when we
Biked hard to catch a
Sunset on the beach
In Manipal..
We missed it because
He wanted to change
To his shorts first.
Can you believe that?
Enraged, Disappointed
I lie on the sand.
He too understands what
We missed.
But that's all right.
Good that we know what
We've missed.
Good that we know
What are we gonna miss
If we don't pursue.
That's what keeps you
Going right?
The curiosity that fuels
Possibilities..
How biking in the Himalayas
Can always start with
A feeble admiration for
Sunsets from above a
Classroom.
Homecoming
My boy doesn't seem
To walk on the ground
These days.
He likes to levitate.
Shit-talking about random
Girls has stopped.
Looks at earrings in
Thrift shops than
Window-shopping
Second-hand bikes.
He doesn't stone the
Mating dogs these days.
Talks about the nostalgia
Of Kishore Kumar songs.
Oils his hair and wears
Better bright shirts and
Wonders why his shit
Stinks after he shits.
My boy has become a
'Bwoy' it seems.
The other day he cleaned
His own puke and swore
Upon his mom to give up
Drinking.
He was a good goddamn
Cement-Wall with shards of
Glass to insulate himself
With feminine curses.
But somehow a witch has
Gotten to him bad, like
Periwinkles leaving cracks.
We're taking counter
Measures though..
Confident, his sailed ship's
Gonna capsize in about
Six months. Or maybe less.
We're getting ready on the
Otherside to relish a
Drunk night full of his rants
About her betrayal.
We know he's gonna sing
English songs after the 4th peg.
His homecoming has to
Happen with an orchestra.
So we're busy tuning our
Instruments now.
To walk on the ground
These days.
He likes to levitate.
Shit-talking about random
Girls has stopped.
Looks at earrings in
Thrift shops than
Window-shopping
Second-hand bikes.
He doesn't stone the
Mating dogs these days.
Talks about the nostalgia
Of Kishore Kumar songs.
Oils his hair and wears
Better bright shirts and
Wonders why his shit
Stinks after he shits.
My boy has become a
'Bwoy' it seems.
The other day he cleaned
His own puke and swore
Upon his mom to give up
Drinking.
He was a good goddamn
Cement-Wall with shards of
Glass to insulate himself
With feminine curses.
But somehow a witch has
Gotten to him bad, like
Periwinkles leaving cracks.
We're taking counter
Measures though..
Confident, his sailed ship's
Gonna capsize in about
Six months. Or maybe less.
We're getting ready on the
Otherside to relish a
Drunk night full of his rants
About her betrayal.
We know he's gonna sing
English songs after the 4th peg.
His homecoming has to
Happen with an orchestra.
So we're busy tuning our
Instruments now.
Book
I haven't read the book
You gifted me on my
21st birthday.
You remember that day?
You came to meet me
From Mumbai. We had
Lunch in a restaurant.
One of my friends had
Insisted me to offer you a
Flower. I did and you
Had accepted it without
Feeling awkward.
I told you about how I
Love to walk to college
All the way from the
City bus stand.
You said you'd love
To walk. And we walked
Some 7-8 km that day
In the sun.
You gifted me that book
Upon reaching college.
I couldn't read it then.
Then things turned
Worse between us.
I decided to read it when
I'd miss you the most
One day.
A decade has passed now
And every excuse not
To read it has come to
An end.
I don't miss you much but
I feel I should read the book
One of these days.
Or should I go back on
The same road to cover
The same distance
Under the August Sun.
Miss a decade of your
Absence at once.
Then sit in the college lawn
To read it.
Perhaps every finished
Page can be used to
Wipe off tears or
Burn them to ashes by
My brain-scalding ire.
You gifted me on my
21st birthday.
You remember that day?
You came to meet me
From Mumbai. We had
Lunch in a restaurant.
One of my friends had
Insisted me to offer you a
Flower. I did and you
Had accepted it without
Feeling awkward.
I told you about how I
Love to walk to college
All the way from the
City bus stand.
You said you'd love
To walk. And we walked
Some 7-8 km that day
In the sun.
You gifted me that book
Upon reaching college.
I couldn't read it then.
Then things turned
Worse between us.
I decided to read it when
I'd miss you the most
One day.
A decade has passed now
And every excuse not
To read it has come to
An end.
I don't miss you much but
I feel I should read the book
One of these days.
Or should I go back on
The same road to cover
The same distance
Under the August Sun.
Miss a decade of your
Absence at once.
Then sit in the college lawn
To read it.
Perhaps every finished
Page can be used to
Wipe off tears or
Burn them to ashes by
My brain-scalding ire.
13 January 2025
Men In Love
I don't want this night to
End. I don't want this
Conversation to run out
Of steam.
The moonlight reflecting
From your eyes and
The enchantment your
Lips have cast..
There's something about
Today's sky.
Something about you in
This cold-stricken passage
Of time.
The sways of your hair
Against your cheeks.
My heart playing tricks
With my senses..
It's hard to express.
Your persona building a
Nest in me like you're a
Sparrow and my yearning
Finding excuses to make
You origami crafts.
Damn this feeling.
Why would anyone
Stereotype men as
Strong and haughty?
They clearly haven't seen
A guy fall in love.
Smooth like fragrance.
So soft, even a thousand
Feathers can't match
The caress.
A man falling in love is
Like a little girl's dream
Translating on her face
When she's asleep.
You gotta be careful
To capture it.
It's a momentary lapse
Of reason.
A little rush and
He'd be conscious..
And you may never see
That blush again.
Well, till maybe when
He'd be blessed with a
Daughter in some
Imaginary future.
Mom, Gran and..
It's the weight of daily
Chores or burden of idealism
Imposed within closed doors?
The cry of babies or the noise
Of wanna-be boys and men
That weighed her down?
Why is she hesitant when
Someone asks her name?
Who was she before she
Could be a mom or gran?
The magical mystery, who
Reeks of round rotis and
Balance of a perfect sambar.
Something loud-mouthed
Consumed the syllables of
Her last name.
Found only in her school
Certificate maybe.
But the paths to her school
Is erased-
Childhood defaced and
The backstory of how she was
Before she turned a Misses is
Fed to the Wolves.
What remains now is an
Ageless face. Her wageless
Labour and hints of onions
In her expression..
Which doesn't go beyond
A couple of sulphated tears
In the kitchen.
Your own Magic
After a while, you get
Handy with seamless
Operation of gears and
Clutch.
It occurs to you, how a
Better braking system is
Not merely for stopping but
Upping the speed.
After a while, you realize
How you spend your days
Is how you spend your Years,
Decades and Lifetime.
And how sometimes
Consequences don't matter.
Putting yourself in a cocoon,
Having yourself an image.
Doesn't matter.
Age can be counted on
Number of places you've
Visited and number of times
You've aimlessly danced.
You realize if you could
Have stretched your hands
A bit more, you could have
Grown a pair of wings.
How if you could have
Eased yourself with life,
Things could have fallen
In a better place.
After a while, when you
Find yourself utterly alone.
You realize, how no Priest
Or God can help you.
Nor a president or PM.
You realize how you
Need to work on yourself
Till the feather of
Luck comes to rest on your
Shoulder like it's a
Whisper of Buddhist bird.
You realise how
Wonderful it is to be
Your own wizard and
Magic.
Handy with seamless
Operation of gears and
Clutch.
It occurs to you, how a
Better braking system is
Not merely for stopping but
Upping the speed.
After a while, you realize
How you spend your days
Is how you spend your Years,
Decades and Lifetime.
And how sometimes
Consequences don't matter.
Putting yourself in a cocoon,
Having yourself an image.
Doesn't matter.
Age can be counted on
Number of places you've
Visited and number of times
You've aimlessly danced.
You realize if you could
Have stretched your hands
A bit more, you could have
Grown a pair of wings.
How if you could have
Eased yourself with life,
Things could have fallen
In a better place.
After a while, when you
Find yourself utterly alone.
You realize, how no Priest
Or God can help you.
Nor a president or PM.
You realize how you
Need to work on yourself
Till the feather of
Luck comes to rest on your
Shoulder like it's a
Whisper of Buddhist bird.
You realise how
Wonderful it is to be
Your own wizard and
Magic.
11 January 2025
Trade Off
We live on a hill.
The rain ruins the lives of
The people below.
We sneak in at night to
Steal shoes of the dead.
We've got a winter to
Get through ahead.
Some of us succumb to
The snow anyhow.
And people from below
Wait for the hints of
Melting snow to steal
Bones of our dead.
They need them to build
Shelters against the next
Rain that's due.
The rain ruins the lives of
The people below.
We sneak in at night to
Steal shoes of the dead.
We've got a winter to
Get through ahead.
Some of us succumb to
The snow anyhow.
And people from below
Wait for the hints of
Melting snow to steal
Bones of our dead.
They need them to build
Shelters against the next
Rain that's due.
Soot
Fed up, ashamed.
Feeling gross about
What I've written in my
Diaries all these years..
Decided to burn them
Page by Page.
There goes 3rd December
Of 2015 and 28th Feb of
Another leap year of
The past decade.
Faces of people I almost
Recognize along with
The fade of my own.
Words turning into flares..
Erasing them line by line,
Soot rising in the air.
Seemed I was a blank slate
For a while.
Shortly it rains.
Water-soaked char of
Memories clogging drains
And stinking. Seeping in
Dreams and haunting to
Remind me how I can't
Escape the past. How flushed
Memories can turn into ash,
And force you to cough.
Feeling gross about
What I've written in my
Diaries all these years..
Decided to burn them
Page by Page.
There goes 3rd December
Of 2015 and 28th Feb of
Another leap year of
The past decade.
Faces of people I almost
Recognize along with
The fade of my own.
Words turning into flares..
Erasing them line by line,
Soot rising in the air.
Seemed I was a blank slate
For a while.
Shortly it rains.
Water-soaked char of
Memories clogging drains
And stinking. Seeping in
Dreams and haunting to
Remind me how I can't
Escape the past. How flushed
Memories can turn into ash,
And force you to cough.
26 December 2024
Nost-algia
The tall building on the
4th street has my book and
Pencil-- I never gotta
Go to school.
The villa near the water
Tank has trophies I
Never gotta win.
The temple near the Lake
Has shoes and a uniform
I never gotta wear.
The High school by
The Panchayat office has
Memories of my crippled leg.
Damaged when one of
The walls fell.
The childhood that's
Rubbed away by the bricks
I carried from the kiln-
When I walk these streets,
A streak of nostalgia
Gets to me-- like I almost
Met my school crush.
But alas! She too had to
Carry bricks for the
New Mall that came up
In the city nearby.
We can almost hear the
Sound of the movies.
And the whiff of popcorn
Popping inside.
Sometimes we sneak in
To get a peek at the other side,
But it seems they always
Shoo away our kind.
25 December 2024
Grandma's Garden
The marigolds with their
Fresh bravery in my bones.
Chased away pigs that day
In the backyard by myself.
I was heck of a Knight.
Yellow for this festival
And jasmines oozing their
Whiteness.
The Periwinkles with subtle
Pink by the fence that's
Always ignored and
The roses in full bloom
Dancing on the only sapling
That came up well after
Years of trying-
The blossoms in Grandma's
Garden was the beginning of
New Year back then.
She made Deities with
Cow-dung for the occasion.
Age-old tradition to pay
Tribute to our ancestors.
Anything that was deemed
As a weapon was washed
And worshiped that day.
The first time she had
Asked me for my book and
The pen for the pooja...
How I had felt like a warrior.
Fresh bravery in my bones.
Chased away pigs that day
In the backyard by myself.
I was heck of a Knight.
Wishes
The next time you travel
By bus at night.
May a beautiful girl occupy
The seat beside you.
May you talk all night
And hit it off well.
May she ask your number
Before you could.
Then by next weekend
May she come to meet you
And you two readily
Fall for each other.
May bike-trips happen
To you both. Late night
Convos under the stars.
Music, love, lust, fights.
And worse, a marriage.
May you have a seamless
Happy life. Two kids in a
Big home. One girl
And the other boy.
One afternoon when you
Sleep on the couch.
May one of them throw a
Steel glass at your face.
And when you wake up
Irritated, to the summer of
Power cut. May you curse
The humidity with
The sweetness of what you
Briefly felt in the dream.
By bus at night.
May a beautiful girl occupy
The seat beside you.
May you talk all night
And hit it off well.
May she ask your number
Before you could.
Then by next weekend
May she come to meet you
And you two readily
Fall for each other.
May bike-trips happen
To you both. Late night
Convos under the stars.
Music, love, lust, fights.
And worse, a marriage.
May you have a seamless
Happy life. Two kids in a
Big home. One girl
And the other boy.
One afternoon when you
Sleep on the couch.
May one of them throw a
Steel glass at your face.
And when you wake up
Irritated, to the summer of
Power cut. May you curse
The humidity with
The sweetness of what you
Briefly felt in the dream.
24 December 2024
The Picture
Your head rested on my
Right shoulder when we
Sat on the park bench.
A photographer captured
It from behind and gave
Us the pic saying
"It's beautiful."
We kissed later that day.
Our first one.
The tendency of that pic
Of turning into innumerable
Good things-
Travel, food, party, kids.
Sunsets, mountains, beach.
Long walks after fat feasts.
This pic that has no
Beginning or an end but
Only possibilities.
It's a house on lease where
We no longer live. But I go on
Paying the rent still.
Like a zoned-out writer
Disappearing in his story.
Drowned and dusted-
Refusing to come back.
Reality fused in fancy,
Your face becoming
A philosophy, an ideology.
Romanticism edging towards
A singularity. And the religion
You've manifested in me-
I'm happy to have become
A fanatic.
My bigotry stands stout
At your service now.
I want a spiritual awakening.
The Hunter
There's a mountain on
Your body and upon it
The weight of a sky.
Then the hungry stomach
And unwavering stability
In the eyes despite all.
It takes patience,
Not the fangs or heavy
Duty arms.
It's the pacing heart's
Focus anchored Against
Titanium locks.
It's clarity in the right
Time. Right pressure
At right points.
A blink of a mistake can
Hail heavy on the stomach,
Even cost your life.
Hunting is not an easy job.
Ready to be steady even
Against impossible odds..
Hunting is a state of mind.
Why do you think a hunt is
Always glorified?
The Hunter doesn't think
About grass despite being
Starved.
Your body and upon it
The weight of a sky.
Then the hungry stomach
And unwavering stability
In the eyes despite all.
It takes patience,
Not the fangs or heavy
Duty arms.
It's the pacing heart's
Focus anchored Against
Titanium locks.
It's clarity in the right
Time. Right pressure
At right points.
A blink of a mistake can
Hail heavy on the stomach,
Even cost your life.
Hunting is not an easy job.
Ready to be steady even
Against impossible odds..
Hunting is a state of mind.
Why do you think a hunt is
Always glorified?
The Hunter doesn't think
About grass despite being
Starved.
Abandonment to Adoption.
My cat died. No, no.
She was wounded.
Contracted an infection
That didn't subside.
She had to be done
Away with that's why.
Taken to a far-off place.
She was abandoned there
So she can't find her
Way back home.
She was a good fella.
But inevitability.
That's how things are.
The rats in the house
Started having a party.
We could hear their presence
After the lights were off.
So Dad insisted on
Petting one more.
Again, we got one from
A far-off place so it can't
Find its way back.
She meows around in
Feeble tones. She's fed
And taken care of till she
Become stout.
This gap between
Abandonment and adoption.
The mercy in our hearts
That sinks away and reappears
Like we really care.
We're masters of utility.
Aren't we?
If it suits us, we might
Bell our cats and start
Adoring rats by offering them
The fantasy of nine lives.
Then sacrifice cats
To a religious cause to
Appease Lord Ninklim.
And go in singing laurels
Of his relevance even
In these times.
Contracted an infection
That didn't subside.
She had to be done
Away with that's why.
Taken to a far-off place.
She was abandoned there
So she can't find her
Way back home.
She was a good fella.
But inevitability.
That's how things are.
The rats in the house
Started having a party.
We could hear their presence
After the lights were off.
So Dad insisted on
Petting one more.
Again, we got one from
A far-off place so it can't
Find its way back.
She meows around in
Feeble tones. She's fed
And taken care of till she
Become stout.
This gap between
Abandonment and adoption.
The mercy in our hearts
That sinks away and reappears
Like we really care.
We're masters of utility.
Aren't we?
If it suits us, we might
Bell our cats and start
Adoring rats by offering them
The fantasy of nine lives.
Then sacrifice cats
To a religious cause to
Appease Lord Ninklim.
And go in singing laurels
Of his relevance even
In these times.
22 December 2024
Secrets
This secret that lingers
In you and bombards
Demanding a safe carrier.
Day by day, gaining weight
And turning into a rock.
How do you find the right
Ears to whisper it to?
The able shoulders to
Unload it onto?
You can't just throw it
At your pillow.
It's already overburdened
With tears and your drool.
Or you can't just scream
It off from a cliff hoping
The wind would carry it
To a place of no return.
If there was a competition
For bearing such a weight
Of a secret.
I wouldn't win it.
Crushed by even hints of
Such secrecy-
Spread, surrendered
And bled out on a paper-
The urge to unburden
Myself readily. The urge
To shed extra-baggage
In order to travel light.
I want to be a feather to
Fly away when the wind blows.
Or turn me into a quill to
Do the same.
In you and bombards
Demanding a safe carrier.
Day by day, gaining weight
And turning into a rock.
How do you find the right
Ears to whisper it to?
The able shoulders to
Unload it onto?
You can't just throw it
At your pillow.
It's already overburdened
With tears and your drool.
Or you can't just scream
It off from a cliff hoping
The wind would carry it
To a place of no return.
If there was a competition
For bearing such a weight
Of a secret.
I wouldn't win it.
Crushed by even hints of
Such secrecy-
Spread, surrendered
And bled out on a paper-
The urge to unburden
Myself readily. The urge
To shed extra-baggage
In order to travel light.
I want to be a feather to
Fly away when the wind blows.
Or turn me into a quill to
Do the same.
17 December 2024
Fart to Spirituality
Big entrance exam day,
Four puris in the morning
Fall heavy on your stomach.
The stomach growls.
What seemed like a harmless
Fart, seems to tease with
A Serendipitous act.
Your denial earlier grows
Thin and you gotta search
For a toilet. But the
College premises didn't
Bother to build any.
You gotta walk searching
For one. But the only hope
You got is Two kilometres away
In the bus stand.
And you walk and walk
Clenching your
Embarrassment in the ass
That wants to cry.
A five-rupee coin in hand
To pay for the toilet and
An old woman on the way
Asks you for alms.
You don't know what to
Do with the idea that
Flutters in your mind but
You gotta prioritize other
Important things in hand.
There's no gratitude
Bigger in life than your legs
Getting you a toilet in time.
And you're thankful-
The relief with which you
Return. You pay that
Old-woman purposefully.
That day you were more
Closer to God that
Anytime ever in life.
Four puris in the morning
Fall heavy on your stomach.
The stomach growls.
What seemed like a harmless
Fart, seems to tease with
A Serendipitous act.
Your denial earlier grows
Thin and you gotta search
For a toilet. But the
College premises didn't
Bother to build any.
You gotta walk searching
For one. But the only hope
You got is Two kilometres away
In the bus stand.
And you walk and walk
Clenching your
Embarrassment in the ass
That wants to cry.
A five-rupee coin in hand
To pay for the toilet and
An old woman on the way
Asks you for alms.
You don't know what to
Do with the idea that
Flutters in your mind but
You gotta prioritize other
Important things in hand.
There's no gratitude
Bigger in life than your legs
Getting you a toilet in time.
And you're thankful-
The relief with which you
Return. You pay that
Old-woman purposefully.
That day you were more
Closer to God that
Anytime ever in life.
16 December 2024
Baggage
Black coffee, no sugar- plain bitter.
A Memoir of Dharmashala: Club from 1850s
when the British found vacation joys
In the hills of their enslaved territory.
'Cozy jazz' - playlist on the music platform,
Plays endlessly, I'm all in even if it's hours long.
It triggers something in me
I think about this life. This damned life and
The series of events that brought me
Here again.
A friend who died
And the bike he left me in his will along with
A lot of vivid memories on it across
Lands, oceans, and hills.
One or two songs from the playlist
Or even more, tweaking the slow cinnamon
Burn of our days from the college..
They take me back to pull my heart out
To the life at it's the barest laughter and
We staring back at it with the coldest eyes.
Then he goes away. Twenty years have
Passed and I haven't cried it out yet.
I feel like poking my eyes with this pen
In my to nab down every bit of tear that
Doesn't come out. But no.
I have to drag this life for him.
I gotta feel un-poured rains for him.
And see the unveiled horizons. And experience
That nightly starlight across the Himalayas.
And maybe someday at dawn, when the sun
Comes up across a snow-laden mountains
In the village of Zanskar, to bring
Peace to my years of traveling streak.
I would then order two cups of
Sea-Buck-Thon tea, to say cheers to an empty seat.
And slowly drink it to fade away in
The foggy wisdom the same evening.
Emancipation
I scribble my thoughts in
My notebook.
If something comes off well,
I type it and pin it in
Google Keep for editing.
After regular rounds of
Mending, bending and
Restructuring of the tone.
I unpin it before posting
It in my blog.
It's like granting freedom
To a prisoner.
Like, an idea was held for
Trespassing the premises
Of my mind-
His plea had to go through
Rounds of considerations,
Before his behaviour
Was considered apt.
And when it seemed
He lived upto the mark,
He was set free in the
Poetry's realm.
And now that he has
Earned his freedom,
He belongs to the hearts
Of whoever reads.
'S'
This urge to capture
Her pics. This urge to
Scream her name.
The butterflies in the
Stomach that want to
Manifest but don't want to
Make anything obvious-
There's pic of an old man
Walking away in my gallery.
And of a wrapper of
Cadbury dairy milk.
A leaf of mango and
A discarded pen I found
When I was walking her
To the library.
This urge to scribble
Her name in the last page,
But it goes only till 'S' to
To become something else.
I realize. These pics are
The moments I steal as
Souvenirs around my
Feelings for her.
Random, hopeless and
Not so loud pics-
An attempt to hide my
Longing, even from myself.
Yet this urge to preserve
Her presence-
The 'S' that became
'Seagull' in my pen name.
The unsung part is the 'P.S'
That hides the things
My backspace couldn't.
Narcissism
Sleeping with myself to
Test my narcissism.
Guess I got an erection.
I saw my face and
The bare-ugly-chest.
Drooled all over to
Quench my fetish.
I was my own king
And my own queen.
Orgasm after orgasm
After the self-admiration.
Finding no one better
Than the two of me-
The goldy manifestation
I am, and the others,
High on the voyeurism of
My pious sins-
Should try me. Try us.
We can gaslight you
At will and feed you to
Your own guilt, so that
You can come in praise
Of my wit later on.
Till then, lemme
Sharpen my tongue for
My next attack.
15 December 2024
War against Cancer
Me and cousin urinated
In the empty bottles,
Stashed by my grandfather.
Hampering his intentions
Of selling them to buy
Himself packs of Beedi.
Guess who were the
Earliest fighters of cancers
By weaponizing weenies.
Maybe we should take up
The task again to raise
Funds for a campaign to
Piss on the balance sheets
Of cigarette companies.
"Cocks against cigars"-
Such a metaphor for
What kills and what can
Give birth.
What can ooze out life
And what sucks it in.
12 December 2024
Duality
Beyond this village,
The opportunities.
The lillies beyond the sea
Against the marigolds here.
The weight of a livelihood
Like a compulsive habit
To join an ocean.
Salt, depth, dark- lost?
Should the river be
Condemned to forget
Its own taste in search
Of something more?
Should the Lotus in the
Village pond go on
Smiling daily, despite being
Ignored by everyone?
The different worlds we
Fancy in our heads-
One leg, very well
Grounded while the other
Is placed in the skies of
Heavens.
The divide forever keeps
Increasing while we piss on
The possibilities that lie
In the middle.
Adulthood
The older you get,
The less you cry.
You just learn to handle
The pain well, with time.
Hide hit, mold it or
Forget-
Whatever it takes to
Push back the tears.
The skilled carpenters
We are with our
Hammers and the nails-
Agile to thump back
Every drop with no fear
Of damaging the eyes,
Or hearts.
Nails stuck all over the
Face, a wooden mask
Always in work,
All through life.
The kid within us we
Tried to love. We abused
Him eventually.
We're our own pedos.
Adulthood really is just a
Funeral where everyone
Laughs at each other's
Progressive demise.
10 December 2024
One Last Hunt
The storm in your chest is a
Caged animal, waiting for
That one last hunt.
Poised on front foot,
Body weight shifted to rear.
Ready to jump as soon as
You open your gates.
But you're afraid of the
Turbulence aren't you?
Second guessing your ability to
Bear lightening and thunder?
To protect the flicker of
Light that you haven't lit yet,
You go all lengths to contain
The storm inside..
And the darkness in your
Life and winter in your legs.
The animal you are, wanting
That one final hunt..
But you were afraid of the
Taking chances all your life,
And you wonder how you
Starved yourself to death.
07 December 2024
Ruined Thing
A bird that didn't fly,
Man who didn't try.
Stuck in ifs and why,
Train left the station
And you stood watching
Instead of hopping on.
The song was ready,
Guitar was tuned.
The song didn't materialize
As you chose not to sing.
A perfectly ruined thing
Is the one didn't get
Any taint or bruise.
So afraid of the wound,
Stood infront of the mirror
All life, glorifying one's
Flawless skin.
But the mirror only
Amplifies what you hide.
How do you escape
Your reflection that lies?
06 December 2024
Carrot Halwa
I hope you say my name
In your sleep.
I hope your kid asks you
Repeatedly about the one
You seek in your dreams.
I hope you've fumbled
Everytime they all wanted an
Explanation and I hope
You had decided to never
Talk about the past.
But not today.
Not on on this gloom ladden
Sunday of late December.
But how are you gonna
Say it aloud?
How are you gonna scream
An ex lover's name in
Everyone's presence?
So you decide to prepare
Halwa with carrots from
Backwaters of Kerala,
The one you had prepared me
When we had first met.
Everyone enjoys it to
The last bit.
Your in-laws say it's the best
They've tasted.
That's the closure everyone
In the family wanted..
That's what you thought.
But your kid still goes on
Aking about me and you never
Realise when he started
Referring to me as papa.
And what shocks you more
Is why the hell is he referring
To your husband as mama.
05 December 2024
POV
I like the Third-Person-POV
Of mine who goes on
Scribbling word after word.
Sentence after sentence.
Stopping for a while to
Search for words and then
Go on in rhythms with a
Set flow.
This simulation that runs
In my head, flowing around
Like a river in search of
New oceans.
I feel the tones, the pauses.
Breaths taken when I
Run out of words and swish of
Wind when a good sentence
Strikes my head.
It's an unstructured play of
Aligning lines, before something
Translates on the paper.
While I stood looking at
The burst-crackers in the street
From the previous night's
Celebrations-
I toppled over an idea and
The subsequent stream of
Thoughts landed me in this
Poem.
Manther
The day I died,
My soul came out holding
Its nose, like it could
Not bear the stench.
It didn't look back or wait.
It escaped from gap between
Unbecoming of my name
Into a corpse.
What will this bird out
Of the cage would do?
For I haven't taught her
Any songs too.
I already see a limp
In its wings,
Can sour to the heights
It wishes to reach?
But then it enters another
Body before I could
Empathize with it a bit.
Souls have no loyalty, ain't it?
Flaunting its body-count
Like it's a Manther,
It goes on lusting for better
Cages and skeletons,
To collect bounty in terms
Of carnal misery of the body
That comes with every
Mortal's mortality.
04 December 2024
Otherwise
Woke up, and went on a walk.
Made myself a cup of coffee
And had a good frothy bath..
It could have been otherwise.
Watched a movie later on,
Wrote something for myself.
A good lunch. A deep nap
After a long time..
It could have been otherwise.
Plugged in the earphones,
Hopped on an old playlist and
Remembered an old friend while
I sulked alone in the evening.
Called him this time.
It could have been otherwise.
He joined me later on.
A bike ride to the distant bar.
A beer, kababs and biryani.
Talked for long.
It could have been otherwise,
But I called him, and we had a beer.
Can live in relief for another
Month at least and maybe
Many more.
03 December 2024
Good Night
Bridges from where to
Where and why?
Why they're always in
The proces of building or
Burning in the stories?
Today, in mine, everything
Lies flat on the floor.
Reasons I don't know.
I mean, on this winter night
Why the trudge?
Why build something
Out of sweat? Or burn
Something to cough out
The same?
It's lazy, hopeless and
Mindless freak this night.
Lies flat with wanting
No help or support.
Loses control and withers
Itself to sleep.
This story is sleep deprived.
And I badly need it.
Good night.
02 December 2024
Sense of Humour
At first, parents will come to
Snatch your sense of humor.
Then those teachers and
Well-wishers.
Advisors and other elders,
Who can't handle your wit.
Sometimes the siblings and
Some friends. Your dog,
The family deity who can't
Take a little offense.
They can't handle the ridicule.
A bit of sarcasm seems
Like a mirror, and they don't
Want to be exposed.
Then there's the government.
The most afraid and intolerant.
Anything that reeks of life,
They want to tax it.
Sales tax on whoever laughs
And slabs of GST on whoever
Makes them laugh.
They love you on crutches
Don't they? A compliant mind
That doesn't question..
A "Yes sir' without any arguments
To label you a patriot.
If only all the leaders were
Comedians, and
In the next world wars
Jokes would explode-
Not that they aren't jokers
Or stuff isn't exploding stuff now.
It's just, no one is laughing.
As the joke is on us.
01 December 2024
Orchards
Somewhere, there's a memory
Of waiting with Mom for a bus
To her maiden home.
Somewhere there's a memory
Of Dad carrying me on his
Shoulders to buy me chocolates.
Grandpa, showing me how
The buffaloes are milked.
Grandma, giving me 25 paise
After I help her with chores.
A memory of running around
With cousins and bruising
My knees. Mama gifting me my
First pair of Pargon-chappals
As I tagged along while
Harvesting paddy.
The brief shudder of calm in
My veins every time I remember
My childhood. Feels like,
I still sneak into those orchards
To steal mangoes. So delicious
That I'm forever thankful.
28 November 2024
The fleeting moments
Do we ever become worthy
Of something? Love, kiss, a hug?
A decent talk maybe, to be a
Day-to-day person?
Why does the mountain of
Expectations weigh down on
The fleeting moments?
Get a job or earn something
Before you could deserve
Something-
The wait, till you turn 25,
The wait, till your dog goes,
Through second pregnancy-
It seems I waited too long for
Things to happen to me.
Took me long to realize, how..
Life happens between fleeting
Moments. The messy palette
Before it manifests into art.
The pleasure of chaos in mind
Before something thoughtful
Arrives.
The blue, pink, red, yellow that
Passed in front of you while you
Waited for that perfect girl to
Land in your life.
The undermined beauty of
Monochromes before
The rainbow did or did not
Happen and the feel of the
Colors that forever remains.
Of something? Love, kiss, a hug?
A decent talk maybe, to be a
Day-to-day person?
Why does the mountain of
Expectations weigh down on
The fleeting moments?
Get a job or earn something
Before you could deserve
Something-
The wait, till you turn 25,
The wait, till your dog goes,
Through second pregnancy-
It seems I waited too long for
Things to happen to me.
Took me long to realize, how..
Life happens between fleeting
Moments. The messy palette
Before it manifests into art.
The pleasure of chaos in mind
Before something thoughtful
Arrives.
The blue, pink, red, yellow that
Passed in front of you while you
Waited for that perfect girl to
Land in your life.
The undermined beauty of
Monochromes before
The rainbow did or did not
Happen and the feel of the
Colors that forever remains.
27 November 2024
True Love
I don't believe in true love.
The unconditional kind.
l like the idea of it though.
I like the fact that some
People believe in it.
I like the fact that my friend
Still believes it.
One person's unhinged
Passion for the other.
An almost obsession
That wants to cross
Boundaries.
Longing for each other
Like it's a rage.
A radical communist if
Love was an ideology
Leaning left.
Like belief in God.
Come what may- logic
Science or rationality-
Or other religions that
Denies one's belief-
Thy lord is supreme-
No one stands a chance.
You can't negotiate
Those terms or plant
A doubt in the mind of this
Plain blindness.
I hate, I can't do that.
I hate, I can't believe in God.
I hate, I can't truly fall in love
With you and worship you
Like you're my Almighty Lord.
I hate, the fact that I can't
Truly surrender to you
When you say- "Lemme
Love you" and when you ask
"Who's your mommy?"
I hate I can't truly be a
Child.
The unconditional kind.
l like the idea of it though.
I like the fact that some
People believe in it.
I like the fact that my friend
Still believes it.
One person's unhinged
Passion for the other.
An almost obsession
That wants to cross
Boundaries.
Longing for each other
Like it's a rage.
A radical communist if
Love was an ideology
Leaning left.
Like belief in God.
Come what may- logic
Science or rationality-
Or other religions that
Denies one's belief-
Thy lord is supreme-
No one stands a chance.
You can't negotiate
Those terms or plant
A doubt in the mind of this
Plain blindness.
I hate, I can't do that.
I hate, I can't believe in God.
I hate, I can't truly fall in love
With you and worship you
Like you're my Almighty Lord.
I hate, the fact that I can't
Truly surrender to you
When you say- "Lemme
Love you" and when you ask
"Who's your mommy?"
I hate I can't truly be a
Child.
Lost Decade
Tell me forgotten friend,
About the decade we lost.
Tell me about the weather
Of far-off places and of
The same place when
We were far off.
Do other people sound
The same? Does the movie
Experience with others
Get better?
Did you buy a PlayStation
To play with your roommate?
Or started together a
Business?
The beer didn't taste
The same for me.
The pillion of my bike
Remained forever empty.
I lost interest in the video
Games. Even my girl left
Me as she couldn't fill up
The void you left.
A pitcher forever waits for
You in beside a half-plate
Biryani, in every bar I visit.
Tell me if you miss me
The same. Tell me if there
Are chances to amend.
Tell me if there's hope.
Tell me if we can meet again-
To bike around in the mountains.
Eat, laugh and bitch about
People in different places,
Like we always did.
26 November 2024
Missed Diwali
How was it this time?
I asked my brother after
Missing Diwali for years.
He said-
The cousin with the funny
Nose had come and we
Made hot-air-balloons like
We did as children.
Grandma took charge of
Of the kitchen to prepare
Her signature once-in-a-year
Vermicelli dish.
Mom planned an elaborate
Rangoli- I helped her fill
The colours - she teared up
While she put your name
In the bottom.
Dad of course was
Grumpy all morning.
He did test everyone's
Patience yesterday evening
While he made all of us
Clean the house.
By 11 am today when
Everyone gathered to offer
Flowers to your photo.
Dad broke down for the
First time in three years.
I haven't cried it out yet.
And I've stopped bursting
Crackers. And just like
The future ones would-
This Diwali was grand too
In your memory.
I asked my brother after
Missing Diwali for years.
He said-
The cousin with the funny
Nose had come and we
Made hot-air-balloons like
We did as children.
Grandma took charge of
Of the kitchen to prepare
Her signature once-in-a-year
Vermicelli dish.
Mom planned an elaborate
Rangoli- I helped her fill
The colours - she teared up
While she put your name
In the bottom.
Dad of course was
Grumpy all morning.
He did test everyone's
Patience yesterday evening
While he made all of us
Clean the house.
By 11 am today when
Everyone gathered to offer
Flowers to your photo.
Dad broke down for the
First time in three years.
I haven't cried it out yet.
And I've stopped bursting
Crackers. And just like
The future ones would-
This Diwali was grand too
In your memory.
25 November 2024
Playfulness
At first, you battle with your mind-
Trying to enslave your thoughts in
In tough words.
Forcefully attempting to knit meaning
In metaphors. Hoping they would
Grow wings one day.
But can clipped wings fly?
The caged birds sing?
The arrogant poet you're initially-
Not knowing the art of letting go-
The edgy arrogance smoothens out
To give way to a playfulness eventually.
You surrender to your mind and
Let yourself flow in uncharted
Territories.
The erstwhile Lake becomes a river
And you give it a chance to join
The ocean. Standing on the sidelines-
Slow, observant. Ready to borrow a
Glass of water from the eternal flow to
Make it into a verse.
Unsure always to declare it as a
Full-fledged poem-- Not being sure
Opens up innumerable possibilities.
Now you can be the Beginning, the End,
Or the middle. Or All of it, None of it or
Simply the in-between.
Trying to enslave your thoughts in
In tough words.
Forcefully attempting to knit meaning
In metaphors. Hoping they would
Grow wings one day.
But can clipped wings fly?
The caged birds sing?
The arrogant poet you're initially-
Not knowing the art of letting go-
The edgy arrogance smoothens out
To give way to a playfulness eventually.
You surrender to your mind and
Let yourself flow in uncharted
Territories.
The erstwhile Lake becomes a river
And you give it a chance to join
The ocean. Standing on the sidelines-
Slow, observant. Ready to borrow a
Glass of water from the eternal flow to
Make it into a verse.
Unsure always to declare it as a
Full-fledged poem-- Not being sure
Opens up innumerable possibilities.
Now you can be the Beginning, the End,
Or the middle. Or All of it, None of it or
Simply the in-between.
Quietude
Somewhere there's this quietude.
Waiting on a hill, looking at a nullity-
Sitting by a lake, waiting for
The ripples to come, touch your feet-
Imagining yourself in a dark room,
Eyes closed. Searching for something.
Searching for what?
This quietude you can't listen to.
Quietude you can't feel or touch-
Trying to translate it on sheets and
Sheets of paper. Not satisfied with a
A pen or colour or your intent.
Ending up relating yourself more to
The blankness of the paper than any
Of the stories written-
Each paper, screaming, louder than ever.
And you, growing quieter every time
You scribble.
With each appeal and attempt-
Between the noise and silence.
The void, getting bigger and bigger-
The artist in you, smaller and smaller.
Till one day when you disappear from
Your art. Consumed by the void.
Only then it's complete.
Only then peace. Only then a poem.
Waiting on a hill, looking at a nullity-
Sitting by a lake, waiting for
The ripples to come, touch your feet-
Imagining yourself in a dark room,
Eyes closed. Searching for something.
Searching for what?
This quietude you can't listen to.
Quietude you can't feel or touch-
Trying to translate it on sheets and
Sheets of paper. Not satisfied with a
A pen or colour or your intent.
Ending up relating yourself more to
The blankness of the paper than any
Of the stories written-
Each paper, screaming, louder than ever.
And you, growing quieter every time
You scribble.
With each appeal and attempt-
Between the noise and silence.
The void, getting bigger and bigger-
The artist in you, smaller and smaller.
Till one day when you disappear from
Your art. Consumed by the void.
Only then it's complete.
Only then peace. Only then a poem.
24 November 2024
Skilled Labour
They don't make children's
Movies these days.
Seems everyone feels a bit
Overly adult each year.
All the toys and dolls be
Reduced to a nullity soon.
All the cry and naivety be
Banned because who wants
To be child anymore?
There would be ultrasonic
Classes after conception.
The foetus should learn
Mandarin by the second
Trimester.
The world's running out of
Skilled labour- one has to
Process Raw-Data if they
Want decent exit from their
Mom's vagina.
Ohh! We need to beat machines
And AI modules you see-
Teaching mental agility to
These LittleShits is the only
Way to save humanity.
Our wars are spiritual,
We're our own enemies.
Need to give up vanities,
Ignore emotions.
Focus on mental awareness
And cognitive orgasms.
So, here, you wanna be
Freaks. Take these
Quantum Nuclear Codes.
Mug them up and don't leak.
If there's an explosion,
Contain it in your head.
And that's a test for your
Enrollment in first grade.
23 November 2024
Two Chairs
At the end of the world,
Against a fiery sky that's
Dying. There are two
Plastic chairs.
I'm sitting on one,
Waiting for you with a
Cold beer.
At the beginning of
The world. Against rebirth
Of a new sky- there are
Same two chairs.
Still waiting for you,
The beer is cold still.
And the epochs pass by-
Ice-ages -advent of warmth-
The civilizations and now-
The same chairs against a
Murky sky and skyscrapers.
But you come this time.
Where were you? Doing what?
Having flings? Kissing hoes?
Tasting betrayals?
The beer just turned warm
And the moment is gone.
Saying BFFs for life-
The way you've come now.
The sheer audacity.
Where are the snacks?
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